They expected forgiveness from me and said I wasn't being Christian when I eventually said sorry means nothing if you carry on the act. If I ever made a mistake by saying something wrong though they played hell with me for days about it until they lost interest in the situation. They literally sucked the life out of me.
The one good thing is coz I was was drained by them mentally and emotionally it also drained me spiritually and helped me wake up from the cult so I'm grateful to them for that. I've cut the person off from my life now and I'm so happy but their words about me not being forgiving enough still linger in my head coz I certainly don't want to drag any big issues into another relationship if I meet someone.
Maybe my jw version of my conscience being in overdrive always looking for fault with myself all the time hasn't settled completely yet. They had a great way of making you feel guilty even for the slightest thing